[[ bLuHdy Life ]]

There are some blogs out there that rambles on about the ups and downs of life
and possible random stuffs once in awhile.
And this blog, is one of them.
Just needed a space to put down some thoughts or I would have gone insane.
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009

.::Racist attack or Hatred attack::.

Lately in the news, there was some Indian students being hit - racist attack.
Right now, I'm in the lab, I WAS ALONE in the lab,
before these two Indian guys came in.
Now they talked loudly,
open some Indian video or something with music quite loudly,
WHILE talking loudly.
seriously, WTF?
being the minority, still have the guts to annoy the shit out of people?
I would have been pissed either way if it's an Aussie guy/ girl.
But somehow I feel more pissed,
maybe cause I have no idea of the language and it's considered noise, meaningless sounds to me.
whereas if it's English,
at least I can comprehend it as music and understand some part of the conversation.
wtf seriously, wtf.
I'm saying some people get hit because they fucking deserved it.
inconsiderate piece of shits.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
4:15 PM~*

.::Give Me Reason::.

// give me reason coz I've lost it.

Network exam in less than 3 hours.

And I gave up.

lost all hope to pass this exam.

I felt so down.

I forgot the reason why I'm striving in my life.

so give me reason,

to prove me wrong.

//Maybe I do get what I deserve.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
10:10 AM~*

Friday, June 19, 2009

.::New Start, Same Old Life::.

//cut my life into pieces...

Yesterday, I was offered something that many might have wanted.
longed.
wished for.
But I did not exactly agreed yet.
Hesitation.
I'm still hesitating.
What? Why? Who?
Unlike other people who are really determined to get a PR here,
I'm those stuck in between types.
I feel like I wanted to stay here,
yet, there's no reason I wanted to stay here.
but then, there's also no reason I want to go back to M'sia.
In other words, I'm still unsure what I want.
Life is very realistic.
I know it won't go as how I imagined it.
study hard, graduate, got a computing job, make good money, have a good life.
unreal.
study hard, graduate, run a restaurant, make money, survive and live : is the path offered.
I mean, it's not so bad
but just not what I have in my mind.
not my ideal job?
but it might be my only chance to remain here.
and earn money.
and support my family.
damn.
I'm a grown up now.
damn.

//don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
10:55 AM~*