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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

.::Held Back.::.

I love Tassie, I really do.

People are nicer,

public toilets are actually useable,

buses are neat and cleaner,

and lots of events are organised frequently.

Showday, TasPride, Queensball...

When I found out events for TasPride which is held from 31st Oct till 15th November,

I felt so excited.

I want to see what this is all about.

I want to attend all those parties, and picnics and movie organised during that period.

but then reality struck and I realise...

the only free time I had is during my exam period...

which I'm not sure if I'm willing to sacrifice the time yet.

After exams, I'll be working a lot.

To define a lot, I'll probably only have one off day per week.

But that's not so bad, right?

At least I could attend one event...

But that is only sad thing number one.

Cause I also realise afterwards...

I don't have anyone to go with :(

Which is sad thing number two.

And it is also the reason holding me back from staying here.

Friends.

Not just uni friends where you occasionally say hi in class or ask about assignments or people you work with,

but friends to hang out for coffee,

clubbing,

and maybe catch a movie.

I don't have much of these kind of friends back in Malaysia,

so I was lonely then.

but here, I am lonelier.

Cause I don't have one at all.

Maybe cause I work too much.

Always working in the weekends when people go out to socialize.

Busy with uni when it comes to weekdays.

These became the reason I wanted to go back to Malaysia.

even though public toilets are so dirty and stink like hell,

and people are also sweaty and smelly and ugh.

So that is probably why I'm not really trying too hard to get PR here.

just like how I'm not really trying too hard to study for my Psych exam tomorrow.

It's like, I'm going to fail C# anyway.

which means I can't get Dean's Citation.

which means it's pointless to try so hard to get good grades for my other subjects.

sighs.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
9:36 AM~*