[[ bLuHdy Life ]]

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

.::Crushed.::.

It's painful.

I get tumblr to have a place to vent.

To scream.

Because I can't just friggin say it out on facebook.

Too many relatives will be pestering me about it.

And now?

I can't say it on tumblr either.

She'll see it.

I'm really dying to hear from her.

I shouldn't have fall for her.

I'm losing control.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
1:04 AM~*

Monday, May 30, 2011

.::crazy.::.

It's crazy, you know.
To love someone so far away,
someone you've never even met or know what they look like.
But I can't explain it.
This connection.
The feeling of trust.
I've told her things I've never told anyone.
It's crazy.
It's crazy how I can trust someone I barely knew anything about so much.
Everyday, I'm practically dying to hear from her.
When I didn't, I get anxious.
But there's nothing I can do except to wait.
Driving me mad, honestly.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
3:29 PM~*

Saturday, May 28, 2011

.::::.

Think I'm in love with this person thousand miles away.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
1:39 AM~*

Thursday, May 19, 2011

.::time::.

I felt like time is running out for me.
It's depressing really.
They say live your life as if you'd die today,
but it seems like it's doing more harm than good.
All that's on my mind is the suffering I'd cause,
and the nothingness I'll be leaving behind.
How can you trully live to the max with these feelings with you?

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
12:46 PM~*

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

.::That girl.::.

I figured I'd give dating sites a try since I'm not out, I don't get to go out much, work too much, no gay friends/ circle, so yeah.

Then I saw this person's profile, and I just felt like we could be good together.

Art, love for animals, love to cook, long walk on the beach.

Can she be more perfect?

So I shoot her a message, but no reply yet... and I was a bit heartbroken.

My follower on tumblr mentioned PlentyOfFish, so I figure I'd get an account there and give it a shot too.

Unexpectedly (to me, at least), she's on there too.

So I shoot another message.

I don't want to waste another chance.

Whether we can be friends or not,

a reply is all I want.

So...

I'm still waiting.

2 days now?

I know. So nervous + anxious.

Go on dating sites to get to know more people, and both tries, I ended up attracted to only one, and the same girl.

hmmmm.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
1:20 AM~*

Friday, May 13, 2011

.::Charmed::.

We're doing some catching up of Charmed starting at Season 6 since couple weeks ago.

Honestly, I was a bit sad when one of the lesbian couple who is a witch died of old age in Season 7 Episode 4.

ah wells.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
3:03 AM~*

Friday, May 6, 2011

.::Flew by::.

Man, time flew by whether you are having fun or not.

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
3:03 AM~*