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Tuesday, July 12, 2011

.::I'm losing her::.

I feel like we drifted apart.

Since last week.

When she missed my birthday movie date, maybe?

I got upset.

And then there was that spam hug post and you got jealous.

And you said you were sorry for being such an idiot.

And I make you feel okay.

I make you feel that I love you no matter what and you're not at fault,

you are just protecting yourself.

And then I don't know what went wrong.

One day you just said brb and you went offline.

You never came back.

And the next morning, I found that fake crush.

It destroyed me.

And the same night, you left without saying goodbye again.

You of all people who I thought would understand.

I was down in a hole, and you just left me there.

It worsen my depression.

I fought really hard not to cut myself again.

I end up biting.

I feel that I do need help this time.

I looked up stuffs about self harm.

And found LifeLine.

I do consider giving them a call this morning,

but

I'm low on mobile credit,

people are home and my housemate keep asking me stuffs

I know I will definitely cry if I talked about it

I don't even know what I should talk about

There are just too much to talk about.

I don't think my cold is helping either.

I don't care so much that she doesn't love me back

but I don't want to lose this connection.

Like we drifted apart.

Like she got bored with me.

Should I just pretend that everything is the same?

and hope that things will be okay again?

-Same Damn Thing; Just A Different Day-
12:47 PM~*

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